inspiration hits at the strangest times. for me, i had this picture idea in my head at.. oh… about 4am or so, last night. right before i decided it was finally time to go to bed, *this* exact image popped into my head.
i can’t really explain it, but i like how it turned out.
it’s an idea that has been festering around in this brain o’ mine for a little while. a kind of a big idea, or maybe i should say… an ambitious idea. something i’m not even 100% sure i can handle or pull off.
but i’m still sitting && stewing on it, nonetheless.
these kinds of ideas don’t pop into my head very often, i’m usually a pretty realistic kinda person. i know my limits, i know what i’m capable of, and while i like pushing myself in different directions… i also won’t take on things i know i simply *cannot* do.
then there are times like this where i start to think idk, maybe i *can* and it throws me for a loop. i start envisioning things, putting thought towards what it would all take, and while it can feel exhausting.. it’s in a good way. if that makes sense.
i have this sort of project in mind, an *exhausting* one, and while i’m not sure if it’ll ever see the light of day.. i’m still thinking about it. have been thinking about it for a few weeks now. and i feel like every single time i sit down to my computer, it’s on my mind. i might try it out (and heaven help me if i do), but even if i don’t… i think i could do it, if i tried hard enough. i’d definitely need help, lots && lots of help, but the attempt alone could be fun.. just gotta get it all out of the *brainstorming* stage, first. and that in and of itself is a hurdle!
with the current round of the arcade winding down to its last few days… i’ve been trying my hand at grabbing those last few things that we so *desperately* need. plugging machines, trading commons, snooping out rares, you know the drill.
however, after teleporting home after my last attempt, i swear at playing the machines, i came to realize something.
i think we may have an infestation of sheeps in our home.
it must have happened gradually… a kerfluffle sheep from half deer here, another kerfluffle sheep there, setting up a scene with them (like with the candy bar, those sheeps must have one hell of a sweet tooth!), looking for an empty spot that needed *something* cute…. aaaaand suddenly, our house is completely overrun with adorable li’l sheeps!!
not that i’m complaining. because how can one *really* complain about so much cuteness? i’m just afraid i’ll log in one day and they’ll all be shuffled around, as if they’d moved on their own…
if you’ve followed this blog for a little while, you may remember that april as a whole is a.. hard time of the year, for me. and as march edges close to the end (and can we just talk about how *fast* march has gone by? my god!), i’m feeling.. emotional? i suppose. not anxious or even apprehensive, but just very attuned to my emotions. granted, they’re not the most fantastical emotions, but i’m very much feeling them and i’m letting myself feel them.
so i took a pic. because that’s what i do. i’m not the most talented content creator out there && i’m *absolutely* not an artist in any sense of the word, but what i feel i can let the creative juices flow all over is takin’ snapshots inworld. so i took one, full of symbols and meaning and yadda yadda. i don’t think anyone else will understand the symbolism the way i do and i’m okay with that (but if you’re really curious, you’re welcome to ask ♥). it just felt good to put these feelings into something i can say i’m proud of. having an outlet like that.. even if it’s as simple as putting something together that has no meaning for anyone else other than me… is a good way to deal with it all, i think.
I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o’er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.
The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed–and gazed–but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.
and when i say “good”, i really mean.. naked. there is a naked reason for it.
you know, when i first started blogging in sl.. in fact, my very first fashion blog post was a rather racy outfit that included a short skirt, a see-through top && nipple pasties… but yes, when i first started blogging, i was more… free shall we say with the looks i did. and then the longer i blogged, well.. i didn’t become *conservative*, but the posts on my old fashion blog that included, say, my bare nipples are few ‘n’ far between.
lately, though? i dunno, i’m feeling more comfortable in my own skin — and yes, that means both sl && rl. i feel like i’m more apt to take a snap in the buff these days. i mean, not counting the pictures on my own flickr stream where i’m nakie, but i’m on other flickr streams in the nude. …hell, it’s more than once, even.
it’s liberating, i have to say. and i can still tell myself that it’s tasteful because i’m not doin’ anything pornographic, i’m just naked. naked in new rainbow hair ‘n’ heels and feeling fantastic, thank you very much.
who knew that new colors from one of my favorite hair designers would inspire a *nude* photo? suppose that says a lot about how my mind works!
i may not gush here continuously about allarik.. but i can’t deny the fact that he makes me feel unbelievably loved. so much so that whenever he’s around, i can’t help but smile. he’s become such a huge, huge, huge part of my life (both first && second) that i’m so thankful these days that he’d given me a chance at all. and because of that, i found something in him that i thought i wouldn’t find in a relationship…
it’s sappy, yeah i know. but don’t rain on my parade! my happy, happy parade!
we haven’t discussed our wedding or anything of yet. it may happen sometime this year, but it doesn’t even *need* to honestly. i’m as happy now as i ever thought i could be && am content to take things slowly. we can be one of those couples that’s engaged forever and i’m okay with that. as long as i have him, i’m happy no matter what, really..
after we go to the bathroom, can we go smoke a cigarette?
i really need one
but first, LET ME TAKE A SELFIE
so i have an excuse for this particular round of vanity — i have a new skin. and if you’ve followed my blog for any amount of time, then you will know that i’ve *lived* in pink fuel‘s alyx skin pretty much since skin fair last year (which was around this time, too!). alyx just… is pretty much perfect. i loved the face, i loved the lips, i loved the makeup options, and lately.. since i’ve grown accustomed to wearing crazy colored hair, i loved the option of having a browless skin to layer colored eyebrow tattoos over.
needless to say, it had to be an *exceptional* skin imho for me to wanna change. and mochi killed me with this teaser of hew newest skin, sora that i put my beloved alyx on the back burner.
it’s eeeeeeeeeeeeverything. it is giving me LIFE. i am so in love with everything about this face, but most importantly, it’s those lovely pastel brows that i am enamored with. they’re the perfect shades && i love that they’re on the skin itself, because i can fill up all five makeup layers *so* fast if i have to wear my brows there too~
i’m rarely apologetic about my bouts of vanity, but this time? sorry, SO not sorry. i’m lovin’ my face today and i just wanna stare at it.
feel free to listen to this while you’re staring at my face, too! ;p
however, i’ve got some shameless self promotion to take care of. ’cause ya see, i’ve made some *new* couples && friends poses that i’m just itchin’ to show off~
the first pose, called please? (on the left!), is a.. slightly racy ;) couples pose. well, i suppose it could be racy.. it depends on what you’re asking please for!
the second pose, called stay with me (on the right bottom), is a sweeter, intimate couple pose. park yourself right on your partner’s lap so they *have* to stay put with you, bwahah!
and lastly, the *big* group pose, called got my sisters with me (on the right top) is a reeeeeally fun one. i know from personal experience that finding larger group poses can be difficult, so i included five poseballs with this set! however, i made the poses in such a way that allows you to drop one or two or even three off the set for smaller group pics, if needed! very handy~